I am sorry that you had to witness such tragedies and emotional abuse at a young age, and it must have been just as painful for your mother who didn’t know any other way or any other culture. It seems that she did her best with what she had, and you did, too. How terrible to take care of your baby brother and have to mourn him. Like you, I’ve learned from pain in childhood and feel like children shouldn’t suffer for their parents’ hardships. Now I protect the children around me from pain.